Heart Pressure

I knew you didn’t love me, because I loved you. And for us both to be in love would be too good to be true.

And you’re saying soon we’ll be together again, because time flies. But all I can see right now is you waving goodbye.

You don’t know what you put me through. But it’s all okay, I’ve forgotten about you. And in some way, I hope it fucks with you. To know I’m okay and I made it through.

And sometimes I feel things that aren’t really there, like a whisper hello, or your hand in my hair.

Honestly I’m done with it, I’m done with you, you wanna be with me, awesome, but I’m not going to take chances, I’m going to need more than a “I want you back”. You obviously don’t know how much you hurt me, not that its really your fault , but I know you don’t know what I found out about you, if you know how I felt , so broken , you wouldn’t be able to look me in the eyes ever again.

How come its possible for me to love you and impossible for you too feel the same?

Apologizes don’t fix broken hearts.

Sometimes it’s easier to pretend you don’t care than to admit it’s killing you.

You can’t lose what you never had, you can’t keep what’s not yours & you can’t hold on to something that doesn’t want to stay.

Maybe if you stopped complaining for a second, you’d realize that some people have it so much worse than you do.

You give me the kind of hope they all talk about. The kind of feeling people sing about.

Don’t spend your life chasing people who don’t appreciate you.

Looking at that one amazing couple, and asking yourself why that can’t happen to you.

Am I really that easy to let go of?

Let your past make you better, not bitter.

It’s not the goodbye that hurts; it’s knowing I’ll never get another hello.

Why you? Why did you come into my life? Why are you the one my heart is aching for? I could’ve ached for another guy, a guy that would actually care, and maybe feel the same, but no I got you a guy that doesn’t give 2fucks where I am or what I’m doing.

If you don’t fight for what you want, then don’t cry for what you lost.

Don’t cry over the past, cry to get over the past. Don’t smile to hide the pain, smile to heal the pain.

The thing about a girl with a broken heart is that she’ll hand out all the pieces to anyone who comes around.

We were watching the time tear away what little we had left of what we used to be. And there was nothing we could be.

It’s a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain, as if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain. You know those days where you feel ugly and worthless? I feel like that everyday.

God has a plan for you, and you can’t keep thinking that maybe if you clean up your act he’ll reward you with the perfect boy. Live your life. Live it the way God wants you to live it, and respect nothing in return.

I’m isolated from the world and it’s because of you. When I was in your arms and my lips would touch yours I was in the world I could feel it . But until that comes back , I’m isolated, completely isolated from the world.

Well, it was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they meant we were supposed to be together… and I knew it. I knew it the very first time I touched him. It was like coming home… only to no home I’d ever known.

I want you to look back and miss me. And, one day, you will.

Xxo, Tesya